You Made Me Think Everything Was My Fault

When it was you who lied, excluded me, and kicked me out of the family for being mentally ill

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Promises are bullshit.

The people in my family are chronic liars.

My family members - my mother and sister are cowardly, chronic liars who make promises and then break those promises.

They don’t care about the negative mental effects of their lies on me. But I have to respect their wishes, while they ignore mine as completely unimportant.

I mean nothing to them.

I am so unimportant to them they didn’t bother paying my rent for January 2025 and apparently don’t care if I get evicted.

They are the only two who count. My wishes, opinions, and standing in the family are human garbage.

When my grandmother died, we sold our duplex, and because my mother had never lived alone before, she made a bunch of bullshit promises to me to get me to move into the same apartment building as her, although not the same apartment.

Thank God!

Once we moved, she broke every promise made. She didn’t care I was living with ugly, used, old, secondhand furniture she had promised we would replace to make my new apartment into my home, unlike my student apartments, which were student apartments furnished with the crappiest shit I could afford.

My mother made a bunch of bullshit promises to me just to get me to move into the same building as her, having no intention of following through with any of them.

She then agreed to arrange an all-inclusive vacation for me, but guess what? She ended up breaking her promise. A few weeks ago, it was offered to me again, but due to an unforeseen issue, I was informed the trip was off.

Again.

I guess I’ll have to wait another seven years.

But I won’t hold my breath.

It’ll be either a lie or a broken promise.

And I’m the one to blame?